It seems like I have no confidence because this is the relationship thread, where I have virtually no positive experiences to speak of, and when it comes to women, you are right that in that aspect, I have absolutely zero confidence. Negative confidence if that's possible.
Put me in any other situation in my life that doesn't involve me trying to court a woman? Yea, I'm pretty confident.
I mean, I understand my limitations and I'm not always willing to just jump head first into a situation that I know little about, but I have confidence in myself and my abilities, my future career, my beliefs whether they be political or religious, relationships with my friends (my friends that I know to be friends, not the ones who treat me like ****), I mean, whatever it may be.
As much as I ***** about women in this thread, I really found myself, and who I want to be, and where I want to go, these last 4 years that I was in college. I did the college thing a little bit later than everyone else, but I still did it, and like I said, I accomplished so much more than I thought I was going to. So much so, that going back home where I have TWO good jobs lined up doesn't feel "good enough", because it's "going back home", and not a new adventure persay. (Not to be confused with "failing", because I'm not going back to a bad situation in the least bit. It's like I said earlier, it's just a matter of me raising my own personal bar for myself so much higher than it used to be, that I expect more of myself than I used to. I feel like I reached the bar, but now I want "more")
Nah, I'm very confident, and if I'm not talking about the subject of women and relationships, I'm very happy with who I am and what I've accomplished, educationally, professionally, and personally.
On the subject of relationships though, all that accomplishment, determination, pride, and drive, however, hasn't turned me into a desirable man for women to want to date and pursue a relationship with. Therein lies my negativity when it comes to women, because no matter what I do, they simply don't want anything to do with me on that level. And that's been proven through their words and their actions.
On the flip side, you could throw me in a random group of women and I wouldn't be able to date -any- of them.

